I woke up yesterday and was glad that I had two days off from work. I immediately felt guilty for feeling glad. I'm underemployed--I only work part-time. I need to work more; I need to make more money.
Guilt's second front: if I'm only working part-time, shouldn't I have a spotless home or shouldn't I be cooking Top Chef quality meals? Shouldn't I be deep into a novel or a collection of essays or poems? Maybe I could be doing more charity or community work or teaching myself new crafts or skills.
I consider guilt a negative emotion like envy. Guilt can paralyze you if you let it. It can be good if it inspires you, motivates you to do the hard work to realize your dreams.
I need to use my guilt--make it work for me.
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